when angels deserve to die]

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Wednesday, December 15, 2004

my mom keeps trying to make me clean the house. it's not even that dirty. and i'm very vexed all those little chores just makes everything worse. i want to just lie down on my bed, light a tealight candle by the bedside and think. just think, nothing. maybe cry a little but i don't want to do anything else.

my mind is in a mess i want to sleep. but i keep having nightmares these days and i'm always too scared to fall asleep. i don't want to do the chinese homework. it's damn irritating. i have nothing to do on anyway. and my baby sister keeps crying i think i'm going crazy.

i want to go for a walk or a jog but my mom's not at home and i have to babysit my baby sister. i don't like babysitting cos it's so troublesome. and i can't do anything when she cries except to just sit there and watch her. which is utterly useless.

AND LEANNE YOU'RE TAKING A BLOODY LONG TIME WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING IN CHINA I WANT YOU BACK HERE RIGHT NOW I HAVE GOT NO ONE TO TALK TO ABOUT EVERYTHING IF YOU DON'T COME BACK SOON I AM GOING TO JUST DIE OFF SOMEWHERE.

and it keeps raining. rainy days are depressing. makes people want to mope.

and i have to make x'mas cards. people you should come to my tagboard and tell me your add. wanyi and all the sec two jumpers.

ok i'm going back under my blanket right now. it's going to rain soon and i'm going to mope now. bye bye.

1:17 PM
Tuesday, December 14, 2004

don't read please.
i hate this world cos it's so bloody unfair. i hate school i hate the people i hate him i hate her i hate whatever-you-call-it [those in-between him and her] i hate YOU.
damn i know i'm freaking angsty but seriously who cares. nobody is going to tell me what to do because i'm going to do what i want to do and if you're in any way upset about that then you can jolly well go fucking die.
yeah man i hate you. and you and you and you. get lost. go and die. stop bothering me. eat shit man. i've had enough.

4:11 PM
Sunday, December 12, 2004

my mom and my sis are coming back tomorrow. well and they said i might not have to go china after all cos my sis is sick. which means i have to find something else to do my scrapbook on. and i can't think of anything because this just turned out to be another boring holiday.

i want to watch phantom of the opera! leanne you said you would go watch it with me. but you won't be seeing this till you come back cos you're away on holiday in china [which means that you actually have something to do on for your scrapbook, and that's totally unfair].

i think i dislike the holidays. but i'm happy anyway cos they're going to be over very soon.

6:47 PM